Wednesday, July 23, 2008 •
my last shot
i am ready to let go of my past. my hens nite did good to me. it let me experience the emotions tht i need n shld be going thru.
sadness.
laughter.
happiness.
eagerness.
nervousness.
readiness.
emotional turmoil. i enjoyed every single bit of it. from the mini picnic. to the burning of my past photos with exes, letters, journals..to being a princess for the nite. the nite n day swimming. the hotel room. the girl nite out. pizzas. masks. sleepovers. one thing im sure is. im ready to get married. in the club, i was dancing. i love dancing. but i didnt dance like how i used to. it seems tht the time is moving too slow for me. i kept looking at my watch. my knees is hurting. i didnt sweat. i kept thinking of mr fiancee. i was forcing myself the laugh n dance. my girls did see it in my eyes but they were not sure. for their sake, i continued n put a very happy face ..coz they are so enjoying themselves..plus its my last nite...i shld be happy i tot. but when vick wanted to hav a puff outside, i followed her. she ask me this.."babe, are u happy tonite?"
i said,.."NO..im sad tht its all ending. i dun feel it anymore..i wanted too..i hv too..but its not working..." from tht moment, i know..im ready to get married. im ready to let go of my past n start afresh with mynew hubby later. i dunno if u can understand what i felt, but i felt real. i started to cry. i felt really down tht its all ending too fast..im just 23..but i also am happy to feel this way. i felt i hav grown up as a person, as a fiancee, as a daughter. i can decide myself whats rite n wrong. im so glad i went thru all the emotions. it make me love n miss mr fiancee even more. n im so grateful tht he let me do all this..for thelast 6yrs..and at the end of it..i choose him..over all tht partying.. vick was proud of me. she said, its ok to cry n she knows mr fiancee is the one for me.
i smiled n hug her. =)
thanks babes. for the journey
SAL
VICK
PUTPUT
LYNNA
PHOEBE
i want to be a wife now.
sadness.
laughter.
happiness.
eagerness.
nervousness.
readiness.
emotional turmoil. i enjoyed every single bit of it. from the mini picnic. to the burning of my past photos with exes, letters, journals..to being a princess for the nite. the nite n day swimming. the hotel room. the girl nite out. pizzas. masks. sleepovers. one thing im sure is. im ready to get married. in the club, i was dancing. i love dancing. but i didnt dance like how i used to. it seems tht the time is moving too slow for me. i kept looking at my watch. my knees is hurting. i didnt sweat. i kept thinking of mr fiancee. i was forcing myself the laugh n dance. my girls did see it in my eyes but they were not sure. for their sake, i continued n put a very happy face ..coz they are so enjoying themselves..plus its my last nite...i shld be happy i tot. but when vick wanted to hav a puff outside, i followed her. she ask me this.."babe, are u happy tonite?"
i said,.."NO..im sad tht its all ending. i dun feel it anymore..i wanted too..i hv too..but its not working..." from tht moment, i know..im ready to get married. im ready to let go of my past n start afresh with mynew hubby later. i dunno if u can understand what i felt, but i felt real. i started to cry. i felt really down tht its all ending too fast..im just 23..but i also am happy to feel this way. i felt i hav grown up as a person, as a fiancee, as a daughter. i can decide myself whats rite n wrong. im so glad i went thru all the emotions. it make me love n miss mr fiancee even more. n im so grateful tht he let me do all this..for thelast 6yrs..and at the end of it..i choose him..over all tht partying.. vick was proud of me. she said, its ok to cry n she knows mr fiancee is the one for me.
i smiled n hug her. =)
thanks babes. for the journey
SAL
VICK
PUTPUT
LYNNA
PHOEBE
i want to be a wife now.
hugs & kisses..♥♥ 8:58 PM
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my HENS NITE!!!!!!!
My Hens Nite Pt 2 @ Grand Copthrone Waterfront 18th &19th July
My Hens Nite Pt 1 @ Sentosa (Mini-Picnic) 12 July 2008
hugs & kisses..♥♥ 8:08 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008 •
so many things happening
i had sent out all my invites. by post, email, personally by hand and thru frens..most of them said my card is pretty. and i cant agree more. it resembles me. pretty in pink. heh. i love my wedding invitation card. with my name & his, on it. =P
btw, this friday we are going to have another hens nite..
for ME!!! My hens nite part 2. wHEEE!!! =P
hugs & kisses..♥♥ 7:30 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008 •
lastday
today was the last day i can meet u.
i will wait for u @ our pelamin.
in 26days time =)
i heart u. lots.
hugs & kisses..♥♥ 6:25 PM
Sunday, July 13, 2008 •
mini hens nyte
saturday, 12th july 2008
more pictures soon.. =P
hugs & kisses..♥♥ 1:24 AM
Saturday, July 12, 2008 •
cant wait!
im still wondering..what do they hav in store for me?...who is going to be there? will it be what i expected? will it be a huge surprise alltogether? or if its just a normal gathering..or NOT?..hmm..im so excited..i cant wait !!! n also eager..the girls have been keeping things from me...n putput..is she related to them?...i dunno..i hope so..ahaha...is today the day? or really not...so many mystery unsolved!!!.............arrgghhh!!! i will find out tonite..
undate soon.
hugs & kisses..♥♥ 1:46 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008 •
so far so good
CHECKLIST
- all hantaran stuff bought
- new bed delivered
- room painted
- henna date confirm (no more headaches pls after i kena sabo by this lady...)
- pampering spa session @ wayanretreat sponsored (by bestie n razia!!!! woohoo!)
- cupcakes confirmed with kak ros
- choosen wedding dresses n all..i love my gown!! =)
- honeymoon details confirmed with kak monie
- pelamin/catering 80% paid
- berkat all done
- wedding invitations sent out
- guestbook on the way (done by putput!!)
- dj/karaoke NOT YET
- photography.videography NOT YET
- decorate hantaran stuff NOT YET
.....................what else eh??.................................................................................
hugs & kisses..♥♥ 7:35 PM
Sunday, July 06, 2008 •
35days..
and u return from reservist after 6 days.
to me. only me.
and i love you . and only u.
35 days more. =)
hugs & kisses..♥♥ 3:51 AM
Friday, July 04, 2008 •
ME.
this book is the perfect tool for me. ive read it once, n i want to keep it. but its a library book. ill find this book soon. it teaches me alot of things abt being someone fiancee. what to expect. what to encounter. how to react. how to feel. it made me identify my feelings n emotions and make me understand wat it meant. n its ok to cry or to be sad. n also be happy n excited, by not feeling gulity abt anything else. well.. EMOTIONALLY ENGAGED..A Bride's Guide To SURVIVING the "Happiest" time of her LIFE. while u think being engaged is abt all happy, lovey dovey stuff...think again. its when u experience the diff kind of emotions in one go...hatred,guilt, happy, in love, confused, misery, overwhelmed, blessed..n so one..its ok to feel tht way. its healthy. dun be scared. but one thing for sure, it made me grow as a person, and made us grow n a couple..n i can say now, im ready to get married. coz ive cross the bridge from being a single lady, to being someone's wife soon. i have past tht phase.... n im so ever ready..nvr felt better. no one can change my mind or say what they thing it is. coz they dont understand coz u hav not experiance this wonderful journey of mine. =) things will change, abit, alot..im not sure. but my hubby will be my top priority later. i love my parents no less, still alot, but u have to be a wife or shld i say a wife to be to understand my statement just now. REALLY. my gfs can still party or hang out as much as they want. of coz i will feel left out sometimes, but i choose to stay out of tht sometimes..not bcoz im afraid of mr fiancee or bcoz i think is not appropriate..but bcoz i think this is how i shld behave..dun enjoy too much. coz i felt i am not alone anymore..its like i need him to be by my side. like i felt imcomplete. but of coz, i will still have my once a week nite out with my frenz without him, but not as often as i used to when i was single. Really. if u still think im a boring person after i got hitch, u can think tht. coz its not abt me or him anymore. its abt us. thts all tht matter. but ill bet, i will still be the same mira as b4..the crazy and funny and noisy girl...
hugs & kisses..♥♥ 2:13 AM
