i thought no one was there for me. but you were there. u listen to my sorrows. u listen to my problems. i feel so much better now. u care. u did. i believe you. u didnt fake it. we share the same siblings conflicts. some frenz conflicts. some family conflicts. i could relate to you. hang on there ok? be strong. thanks for being my fren. im so comfortable talking to you. its been awhile since we had our girl talk. our meet ups. i miss you alot. i enjoy tonite, u did too. =) 4hrs of talking is worth it. you were going to cry just now, i knew it..i took your hand. i didn't even finished my dinner coz i felt you. i was going to cry, but i control it. some people can be so mean yeah? im so sad,you know. life is full of problems. we have to deal with it.
p/s: tell me how's the book ok? =P hehehe

i love you too razia. =) muacks...

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this what kakak rozita gave out to our team on her baby's 1st mth...
its so pretty & nice.. i like it alot!! so special.. =)


so cute!

we took the 9am ferry. woke up very early,but luckily my baby send me to habourfront so not so badlah..hehe we are going BATAM!!

our ticket!

me, nana, sal & p.b. guess what?! i saw dyllah at the waiting area!!......n so five of us hang out together and dyllah also join us in the ferry... =) hehe

us in the ferry..

the wind was very strong. i love being at the deck..the strong wind blows at my face..i feel so cool..relaxed..free..happy..seems that all my troubles went away...i could only see the water infront of me..no buildings, no cars, no busy street..just the open sea..it feels damn good..

the open sea

im scared actually...hehe
i love this picture!

we ate at this food court in Mega Mall Batam. guess what we ate for breakfast? TOM YUM!! hahha...plus ayam penyet, kway teow,noodle & fried rice...hehhe...crazy rite? damn heavy n spicy..after breakfast, we proceed to our massage centre @ IndoThai Massage....2hrs babe..shiok!!! only cost ur 140,000rp..ard SGD$24!!..the place is nice..the service is good..it was a great 1st time experience foe me! =) we didnt close our curtain binds coz we wanna see each other!! i tipped the girl 40,000rp for giving me good service!

our slippers..b4 our massage

then proceed to window shop at this shopping mall & pasar malam......the road is very bumpy, the road is dangerous, the people are scary (i mean they look at us in one way), the things are cheap, the food is great!....

our dinner at the GOLDEN PRAWN was fantastic! had a huge seafood dinner!! we gt to choose our own seafood from the water! and we ate at the kelong....above water! shiokkkk!

exactly today was my grandad 10th yr death anniversary. i felt guilty tht i forget abt it. but i soon remembered it when i receive an sms from my uncle. ard 11.30am. i miss him. he was my grandad. my tok aji. i did recite for him some prayers during my bus ride to lunch. and after lunch i did it again. and coincidently, fiza O didnt hav any topic for her show. it was free for all, anything we wanna share. n so i send her a msg.

"Hari ini genap 10 tahan arwah atuk saya meniggal kan kami.walaupun sudah lama pemergiannya itu, kami sekeluarga masih meniggatinya...kami tidah pernah melupakanya dan kami tetap akan merinduinya..Amin."

and fizo O did read it on air. she says tht we will regret the things that we didnt do for someone we love, until they are gone..she says we need to treasure the time we had with our loved ones..listening to the way she say it, i started to cry. tears flow down my cheek. no one notice me. in the office at ard 3plus. i cant control my feelings.i miss him alot. he taught me alot of things. i still can rememebr the last few hours and minutes before he left us. i was there by his bed. n i saw he took his last breath. u tell me, do u think i can forget him? NO..but im sad tht i can actually forget his death anniversary..

the thing i regret most is that when i was younger, i should have been more serious about learning how to read the Quran..i used to really hate it when he taught me ngaji..so tiring & hard..but now,thinking abt the things he did for his grandchildren, he sure loves us more than his own children.i miss his stories abt our Prophets, buying us ice cream, cycling @ voideck, giving us $1, our silly jokes...i love him. he's a great man,dad,grandad,teacher,uncle and husband....

why? why? why?
i dun understand. still.

with my head in my hands, i sit and cry..

TRAVELLING around the world!! thats what I want to do now!!..

p.b hav been to so many countries...from korea, spain, cambodia, thailand and germany (her fav!!)..juz to name afew..and sal is catching up on her trips..bali, puhket, cambodia....switzerland maybe?? hehehe and ill be following their footsteps soon!! with my hubby to be!! hahaha i wanna play with the snow!

tralalalalala...........=P

we really bonded. @ work. @ villa bali. =)

yesterday was syah's wedding with tina. as expected, it was a grand affair. huge white tentage with staged lime green dais with two big chairs. the reception was held at his newly owned flat, which he was so excited abt for the last few weeks. finally, my abang syah is a married man!! hehehe =P

Congrats to NurSyahid & Sutinah..have a blissful marriage.. =)




i love their wedding card. its so pretty!




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last nite we had a movie date with hidir&liza and malek&fazlin. we watched the movie "Vacancy". It was a low budget movie,seriously,but it was a very "terperanjat-terperanjat" one! not worth our $9.50. BUT, the good news is that, malek & fazlin are going to be parents soon!! Congrats to them!! im so happy for them. fazlin is already 5 weeks pregnant! =)

but unfortunately, i had a really bad migraine after the movie. im having tootache and i felt so lousy. i had a wonderful day of great news but end it so badly. sigh..

its always been like this. im just one of them. not a leader. not someone who others look up too. im just a follower. i feel really irritated sometimes. and tired. and always questioned myself. WHY? am i not worth the time?

maybe my paranoia is becoming worse. or its always been there. or is it bcoz im too sensitive that im just over-reacting and being too emotional?? is this the reason why others distant themselves away from me?? someone tell me!!!!

but i try to make myself happy by doing silly things like dancing around in the office and telling people stupid jokes..those things really release the stress out of me. but whatever it is, i thanked my baby for always being there for me. he would never leave me alone. he never pretend. he loves me for who i am.

"Ya Allah, tabahkan hatiku yang lemah ini..kuatkan semangatku ini...Ya Allah, aku sembah padamu agar kau dapat memberiku pertunjuk untuk-ku jalani hidup yang penuh dugaan ini.. Amin."

~~love birds~~

strolling along Orchard Road. so fast paced and busy, yet we took our time to walk. took funny pictures & funny poses. had a nice dinner @ Chicago Steakhouse. check out the band @ IndoChine and was hoping they would sing our song.."Three Doors Down ~ Here Without You"..n surprisingly, they did! i was so happy...n smiled to my baby. he smiled back..it seems that were meant to be together, at that time, at that place. so we stood by the whole song and was hugging each other and holding hands during the song. east coast was windy & cold. the ambiance was perfect. we are in love. =) hehehe

yes im very buzy lately. n tired eveyday. its been a week sey...nothing really much happen actually. its just that im always home late,tired,hungry & went straight to bed once im in my room. i dont even have time for my baby. poor him.

ive finished my PRISON BREAK SEASON 1 dvd marathon last weekend. it was suuuuuupeeeeerr great! my saturday & sunday afternoon didnt go to waste. i love Wentworth Miller! he's so freaking turns me on! hahaha.....SEASON 2 anyone?? hehe

on 10th july (last tuesday) was my 1st yr working in UOB. yeah..it was damn fast. maybe bcoz im having so much fun there, (putting aside all the stress & mistakes i did), having very crazy and easy going colleagues really help me survive working there. i love it there! and im really glad that my rezeki gets really good during my stay there. Alhamdulillah...

crazy bunch of people...love it!

shld i say it now?....ive already planned my beach holiday. YEAH! to.........................PHUKET!!! hehe..Ko Samui is too complicated and Bali is very scary (after i heard stories my frenz told me..sigh..). i have not imform my parents abt it YET..but i will do it soon. so to my along & caca & adek, if u reading this dun tell mama 1st ok? pls.....hehehe... im going on my birthday week..(my bdae on 2oth aug..*hint* hint*). =P im so excited abt it!!!! cant wait!!
bestie & girlfren are now in bangkok..for 6days!!! damn..jealous like mad sey..wanted to follow but i cant get any leave on 12th & 13th... =( i hope they will buy for me lots of things bcoz they going to shop like crazy!!!

my sister getting married this November. she so enthusiastic abt it. pereparation already stated n my mom really excited abt..(kiasu too i guess bcoz we're already starting to do all the hantaran thingy..hehe) im sp happy for her...FINALLY... =P

070707 was LIVE EARTH day. so do your part and save our earth. go green. global warming is REAL!!

[Ashlee Simpson - Pieces of Me]

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care

When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy it's your mission
And you won't stop til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

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ive been listening to the O-show every single afternoon. from ard 3.15 - 4.15pm. listening to Fiza O from ria 89.7fm. i love her show "Girlfrenz!". she will talk abt girls stuff and seek the listeners' opinion on the topic she wants to discuss. she gave me an insight on how to deal with problems in life and some other funny things girls might experience it their life. Fiza i loike! =) go check her up!

WoooooooHooooooooooooo!! i really enjoyed myself!!! (literally, enjoyed myself coz im alone! haha) i even made frenz with this Japanese/Korean/Indonesian Chinese (i have no idea!!) girls sitting beside me! =) dance & scream my lungs out! hahah...and yes..there is confetti coming to the end of the concert..cOoooL!!

u have to listen to her voice!!!sorry the last two videos are slanted coz i took wrongly...juz hear her voice ok?sorry the video quality very poor...hehe im using my Olympus 6.0mega pix camera only...

p/s: check this pictures taken by a blogger MAZ. she took nice pictures!! wheeeee!!!!!