Listening to : Rascal Flats~~ What hurts the Most
its always been like this. im just one of them. not a leader. not someone who others look up too. im just a follower. i feel really irritated sometimes. and tired. and always questioned myself.
WHY? am i not worth the time?
maybe my paranoia is becoming worse. or its always been there. or is it bcoz im too sensitive that im just over-reacting and being too emotional?? is this the reason why others distant themselves away from me??
someone tell me!!!!
but i try to make myself happy by doing silly things like dancing around in the office and telling people stupid jokes..those things really release the stress out of me. but whatever it is, i thanked my baby for always being there for me. he would never leave me alone. he never pretend. he loves me for who i am.
"Ya Allah, tabahkan hatiku yang lemah ini..kuatkan semangatku ini...Ya Allah, aku sembah padamu agar kau dapat memberiku pertunjuk untuk-ku jalani hidup yang penuh dugaan ini.. Amin."