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Sunday, June 18, 2006 •

frenz.

life's great..*wink*

over the yrs i hav grown up n are able to think more maturely abt life. i always tot my family are the one important thing in life i cant trade wif n the ones who will cheer u up no matter what. that is rite. n that frenz are always there n will nvr leave u.the latter was wrong. some frenz do leave u n u cant help it but let it go.

some frenz come n go. ther ar always there only when ur happy. but when u nd them,ther not ther. rite. that is wat normal frenz ar. but really close or gd frenz are the ones who noe ur ups n down,ur probs,ur joys,ur secrets. bestfren are the one who knows everything abt u. i used to hav that kind of fren.she was my bestfren, i missed her so much that time n i tot i will nvr hav frenz again after we separated. now i hav moved on.

ive known her since sec1.n since then she had been my bestest ever bestfren until our poly days ends.we had abt 8 yr of almost perfect friendship. she was my sister,my twin,my lesbian partner(people used to tease),my buddy,my advisor,my tutor, my everything..we were liked glue. doing everything together.eat,study,go home,shopping,go to sch..we cry,we laugh,we joke,we shout,we scream,we make up,we hugged..seems like lesbian partner. we dun care wat people say..although we hav our ouwn bfs at that time. we r inseparable.our parents know each other. i sleep over her house.

n sec 3 & 4 ,we were in diff class. we still manage to become more closer when we exchange letters in between classes,telling abt our crushes,our problems,our secret...the letters became thicker n thicker.we cry abt each other problems n celebrate abt eachother achievements. we talk on the phoe for hours n hours..the record time was 8hrs in one phone call!!!!.....n we tot it would nvr end our fairy tale friendship..she the only fren i cared 4..no one else i care. so no other frenz i got close wif.

wat a coincidence,we got into the same poly n same course (wihout discussing w each other!)..we were delighted n extremely excited wbt our poly life ahead. n during poly times that we drifted apart bit by bit. we were in diff classes,our schedule are different. more frenz came. we share them. but the new frenz tried to separate us.since they r in the same class as her, they spent more time wif her. i dunno wat they hav said abt me. she became lesser intrested in ony "us" coz she got more new frenz n more activities outside other than beaing wif me. i tried to be cool abt it n tried to hang ard with the groupies.they seem more intrested in her than i am. n therefore i feel left out n unwanted. i wanted my bestren attention but she seems soo buzy wif other things.
like i said, i hav no other frenz. mayb some. but not that close.

i tried to start our sec sch rituals of writting each other letter,n to my dissapointment, she did not reply n said she was too busy to write. i was hurt.slowly...i felt she was dismissing me n became close to another girl. they seem to be like "bestfren".they shop together,wear the same clothes n go out ..all without my notice..i tried to be cool. n the groupies physco her n told her i was jus being childish!!!!!..i believed she listen to them.

i was a hard poly days. we fight often. i cry always thinking abt my other half.i feel lost. told my bf abt it, he dun understand. manage to get close to my other frenz.n its seems less lonely. but im still wan her back. she always say not to be tooo emotional n paranoid...n whenver she talks,its always abt her n not me or us...that where were became normal frenz...it was really hard 4 me.i cried everyday thinking of her.to me. she still considered me a her "bestfren"..yea rite!

slowly i move on.i gained more frenz. n one of my good fren was there for me when i nd him.instead of calling her, i called botak..glad to hav him.he was ther when i hav prob wif my family n bf. he was ther to talk to me. he was there to cheer me up. n she got jealous n nvr think highly of botak. i juz ignore her.

nowadays, she tried to called me n be nice. but i juz say hey..i nvr called her,instead she called me n wanna meet up n ask opinions. i nvr wanted to. she still my fren but i nvr want to b close to her again. i have my own bucnh of frenz now.

i hav my bestie,botak..my razia the only girl i am really glad came to my life (after her..!)..my primary sch frenz who i occationally hang our wif..my monkey's frenz who i can become upside down wif,they make me become my crazy self...my girlies, wawa..dyllah...makes me believed in girly groupies again..n the rest of the chupa chups grils that im happy wif to be frenz wif..n my old time fren nazir n hyder..ther r my old time gd fren,i will nvr forget them eventhough we rarely talk to each other..my cuzzies,they are great..my attachement frenz,which we sometimes meet up..

who knows that i gained so many frenz..when i loose one "precious bestfren"...life moves on..n life's great now for me.. *wink*

muaaackssss..!!

i love my baby of coz...always.. =)

hugs & kisses..♥♥ 3:56 PM

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